Monday, January 13, 2014

Bad Days

So over Christmas I had a couple of BAD DAYS.  I don't mean difficult or hard or that I couldn't wait for Adam to get home.  I mean throwing up all night only to have Axel throw up on me when he woke up kind of bad days. 

One day Axel had a really high temp (the highest I recorded was 103) and I wasn't feeling to great either.  I had the flu too but I didn't want to admit it.  That was a hard day.

Axel too sick to move, sleeping on the floor while I made Olivia lunch.
The day after Christmas I started throwing up at 1am.  When Axel woke up to nurse at 6 I fed him and went to lay him back down and he just threw up every where.  When I sat down with him in bed my bed broke. 

I mean these are just the days where you keep everyone alive until bed time and that's all you can ask for. 

But I had a thought.  It's always been a feeling in the back of my mind, but with these few weeks of multiple illnesses in the Thomas home, it became a little more concrete. 

There are a finite number of days in my life.  I don't know the number and hopefully it's a pretty big number, but no one is going to live forever.  Fact.  And so there are also a finite number of bad days in my life.  Almost every day has some good in it, some fun moment.  But there are days when I'm just too sick to care about that, the really bad days.  And so with each bad day that I have survived this winter (please let there be no more, at least not at this level of awful!) I thought "Well, that's another one down." 

Funny how that thought makes it so much more bearable.  I know that I will have more bad days to live through, but this one is over.  This one I will never have to do again. 

Here's to being healthy and conquering the world tomorrow.

8 comments:

  1. That picture of Axel is so sad. I hope you have no more days that sick, but this is a good way to look at it if you do. I'm going to remember this next time I have a bad day.

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    1. Today feels totally easy now that we're all healthy again, so at least the help put things in perspective :)

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  2. Oh, man... this reminds me of the year Autumn was born and I became sick and Nathan also became sick at the same time. As in rapid fire puking. Ughh! I remember Autumn crying and screaming in her bouncy chair to be nursed while I threw up and threw up and couldn't stop throwing up to nurse her. I didn't know what else to do with her!! I was so sick! I actually had to call my Dad to come over, it was that bad! Then, my poor Dad got it on Christmas morning! Yeah, I don't want to know how many BAD days (like that) are left in my life! Ha! We also had a puking incident on Nathan's 1st bday while on vacation... he had it our entire trip... then, I got it on our drive back. Yeah, awful.

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    1. I was so dehydrated from nursing Axel in between throwing up. I was worried that when I was nursing him I would have to throw up, but I was able to hold it in! I had a bowl sitting by Olivia because I wasn't sure if she would get it, but she never did throw up thank goodness.

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  3. Ohhh so so sorry girlfriend. That's so awful. Glad it's over! I was just thinking this morning about how miserable you were last year when you were sick and pregnant. January must not be your month!

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    1. You are so sweet to think of me!! I was thinking of Elsie's week long fever the other day and I don't know how you did it!! I was exhausted after two days of Axel burning up. But I guess we just do what we have to do sometimes :) And I will not be having anymore January babies for that exact reason! February or later!

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  4. What a great outlook. Hope you are both feeling better!

    ~Ashley @ A Cute Angle
    http://acutelifestyle.blogspot.com

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